Monday, May 09, 2011

Day 118

Still working like a fiend. I'm not sure how I feel. Quiet and sort of flat in a way, a little removed. I do responsible and kind things but feel distant. When sadness appears I wave it away like smoke.

It's like when you're walking through a large and very crowded place and you're in a hurry. You're in the zone, you're dodging and weaving and moving fast with your head down and little thought in it other than moving toward where you're going. Wherever that is.

The work is wholly visual, or tactile, or colors. I'll figure out what it means later. or not.
My desk is piled high with mail, bills, lists, messages, my pregnant cat. I've stepped away, it seems. But not far, and not for long. Not lost, but wandering.
g'night

5 comments:

ravyn said...

"If you're going through hell, keep going." My #Hellseason mantra. Even if it's not hell, just keep swimming.

Colleen said...

I read several blogs and I am constantly surprised by syncronicity in thought or feeling. Maybe it's because I gravitate towards those individuals that are like minded. Maybe it's because the human condition is one we all share. I don't know.
Check out the following post:

http://windling.typepad.com/blog/2011/05/goblins-and-coffee.htmlhttp://windling.typepad.com/blog/2011/05/goblins-and-coffee.html

And as for Soosi, she is lucky to have chosen you as her human.

Colleen said...

Dang-computers can be frustrating! Try this:

http://windling.typepad.com/blog/2011/05/goblins-and-coffee.html

It's Teri Windling's post from 5/10/11.

:-)

DavidK said...

Your walkabouts, even when only mental, usually result in some wonderful art...

I just hope that the process isn't too debilitating, and that you come out the other side with minimal damage!

I'm confident that Soosi, with your help, will make it through her bowling-ball phase, that the kittens will be adorable, that they'll find good homes, that you'll take lots of nice photos to show us, and that it'll be Soosi's only adventure with motherhood...

WV: nooloshi - a japanese dish made with soba noodles and long, thin seaweed slices

Carrie said...

namaste - i too am in the embrace of the dark fog, going i don't know where.....but going...