I've begun to make October poppets. It's a practical thing in that it gives collectors time to plan. I have to think about what I spend my money on and plan ahead. I get that, wholly.
But it's also a thing of the spirit. I've said time and again that this desert summer is hard on me. I start to dread it in April and it never lets me down. This year was no exception and even harder. The air got so hot that I couldn't save my little garden, even with shade and water. The brutal desert summer. Yes, I'm still in it and it won't begin to cool until late September (if then.)
But at least I can now imagine relief coming and my October work leads to October thoughts, which are like a cool blanket of comfort against the oppressive heat.
I want clouds! I want rain and grey and gloom! Because against a steel sky, an idea shines like a bright yellow balloon. You see, it's not that I have anything against the sun. I have something against too much sun. Like too much of anything,(rain or snow) it can have us begging for relief.
Humans need change.
And those of us who feel sadness or fear don't feel so alone in grey as we do in an over bright place filled with leather skinned tourists in pastels.
The summer sun. That stone I talked about last time that for me has become permanently linked with my worry about the environment. I mentioned that sometimes I wake with this fear. Sometimes I take it to bed with me.
Coping with our fears isn't easy. You're probably sick of hearing me say I'm writing a book about it. I'm sort of sick of saying it too. I want to get the thing done! But the truth is that this is easier said than done and I chip away at it as I can, trying not to let the frustration of no-time-after-the-day-job make me give up.
But that's another issue.
I told you that when I wake up with these fears - fear for the planet, for us silly humans, fear of aging and dying - I talk myself down, make a plan for the day and focus on that.
And on other people. Something to do and love.
What do you do? When you're down, when you get discouraged, depressed or anxious. What are your very best coping tools? This is a good time to share. Let's help each other out.
What works for you? No answer is too silly. I promise. There are those who read here that could use the help and friendship right about now. (Those who write here too.)