Thursday, November 22, 2007

Bigger Inside than Out, Thankfully




I woke at 6:40 in a fluttery sort of panic, wondering why my alarm hadn't gone off and why I was sleeping in Orion's room. Then I remembered that there's no school today and that I'd come in when Orion had a nightmare.



I fell asleep again to dream about a clean city full of lights that reflected and refracted off wet buildings and huge drops of falling rain. Orion and I glided down broad empty avenues in joyful abandon, banking turns like surfers on boards, two Bandicoots racing through a world in my head, temporary and colorful as a soap bubble.



When I awoke again, it was to discover the mild cold of yesterday had grown mighty and invaded my chest which now seemed full of lead. I tried to locate a part of my body that didn't hurt. My hair, I think.
Cold medications, a long hot shower and tea with honey and lemon from a neighbor's tree will make me human enough to function. Because today is a day for gathering with loved ones, feasting, and remembering things that are good.



Of which there are many. Among them, for me, the certainty that we humans are larger inside than out. We have the ability to create worlds and change this one. That and the hope that one day we will move past our human infirmaries and our fears of one another and CLICK! All those lights will illuminate at once and we then will fly.


I wish you all a safe and very happy Thanksgiving weekend.



6 comments:

ravyn said...

That left hand looks like a giant squid :-D

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Rubius said...

very cool. you always add a wonderfully philosophical bent to my day.

Those must be TINY poppets... Poppet-elves you might even say... they may be the secret behind our complex inner workings. They are awefully cute. I hope some poppet-elves come out for xmas.

and I have to agree with Ravyn, I saw a squid at first too... although I was watching vampire squid from hell videos (no really, they are called Vampyroteuthis infernalis) on youtube earlier, so that probably helped.

Happy Thanksgiving. Sorry to hear you are sick. I hope school is agreeing with Orion.

Dan Guy said...

I have also woken up sick today. Bah.

Still, much to give thanks for.

DesLily said...

I hope you had a better day once the medicine kicked in.. Happy Thanksgiving! (Kester sends you a turkey hug)

Carl V. said...

Happy and blessed Thanksgiving to you and all of your gang!

You are such a good mom. I don't remember Tori having many nightmares, but I do remember as a teenager going into my sisters room and sleeping with her when she had nightmares just to give my mom a break so she could get some sleep. Those are precious 'big brother' memories for me.

I was just thinking similar things about creativity and humanity. We are, or at least have the potential to be, truly marvelous creatures.

lisa said...

Ravyn: Now I'm like the little kid who drew a spaceship and everyone thinks it's a frog...
oh wait...that WAS me.

Rubius: They are very tiny--less than 1/2 inches tall.

Dan guy: indeed. we focus on the good, don't we?

deslily: Tell Kester I said to remember what I told him about being a good Poppet! And, I'd keep an eye on him if I were you.

Carl: Nothing is more comforting than curling up with a sleepy little one.

Happy Thanksgiving to all of you!