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Saturday, September 13, 2008

What I wish I didn't know.


Thank you for your "what I did this summer" comments. They are bigger inside than out.

I struggle now, these weeks, sorting through the debris of my own adventures, and deciding exactly which general direction to head into. I began to realize, in the midst of all this thinking, that my creative process has changed a lot since I started. I began to think of 'what I know now" as an artist that I had no clue about when I started. It became a sort of list of things that could be reasonably beneficial.

ten things I know now

Less useful, likely, but interesting in an entirely different way;

ten things I know now, but wish I didn't.


When I was then, we stayed out on the beach all day, got deep, dark tans, smoked cigarettes, drank Boones Farm or someone's grandmother's Manischewitz and had sex without latex--- with joyful abandon.

When I was then I believed the adults in charge were at least smarter than me and had our best interests at heart.

When I was really, really then, I believed I might hear tiny hooves on the rooftop on Christmas Eve.

I wish I didn't know....what? This is a tricky question for an autodidact.

Curiously, I typed each not as something I know now, but as a 'then' counterpart. I don't know why that works better. Will think when I'm not terribly sleepy.

Anyway. there it is.

What do you know now, that you wish you didn't?

Lots of stuff going on in the world. Lots of it bad. The news seems more scary and people seem more stupid. Is it me?
For Spencer, (banned from wheels) things got very serious, very quickly this past week, with surgery and a week in hospital. Now we play catch up. Again.
I am now extremely sleepy. g'night

photo of Orion by Mimi Ko